Sicker Than Others Saving the Landfills, one Giant Plastic Toy At a Time

I am done with this. I don’t have the luxury of sitting in bed with this baby nursing, then pumping, then nursing 40 minutes later and pumping right after that again, all day long. It can’t be done without help, and I don’t have that. It can’t be done while I’m taking care of everything else in the house, and I’m evidently responsible for that too. It can’t be done while I’m caring for a 2 year old.

Maybe someone with more commitment could do this. Maybe someone who needs much, much less sleep could do this.

I can’t. My feeder syringes are both broken. I have no SNS. I have no one to hand him off to while I pump. If he cries while I’m pumping, I have to get him. If my milk lets down while I’m holding him, I can’t put him down and pump.

I have an appointment with a LC clinic at 10 tomorrow, because the LC I asked for help from won’t drive to my house to collect her 100 dollar fee. How the fuck am I even supposed to put this baby in the car and drive 45 minutes to the clinic to pick up the pump (65.00 plus 60.00 deposit plus 45.00 collection kit) and the large flanges (12.00) and the SNS (50.00) and talk to the LC at the clinic at some sepcified time if I can’t even find a moment to brush my motherfucking teeth in the morning?

How much money do we throw at this (so far somewhere in the neighborhood of 500.00) before we say fuck it and sterilize some bottles?