From the archives
Thursday, April 8th 2004 – 09:53:11 PM
I want to go home. I miss my mom & dad and my generous, farm style family. I want to live somewhere that we can afford to eat AND put gas in the car. I don’t know how much more of this place I can take… I don’t know how much longer I can be so close to so much—wealth, I guess. It’s just too hard to reconcile. I miss my family. Maybe it’s just because I’m pregnant, I don’t know. Maybe I can’t see anything past this future of us just never catching up. If only we could just settle in somewhere and be a family! When do we start makng decisions for just us, that are about us being able to make it and be happy and secure? What if we can’t find a place where we all can survive? Michael can’t be on east coast, I can’t be on the west coast (we can’t afford the west coast), Hannah doesn’t want to be anywhere but Asheville.. What’s the answer? Go where the jobs are? There aren’t any. In 18 months of searching, M has been on two interviews and gotten neither job. I can’t even get to an interview of I get someone to look at my resume, because we can’t afford for me to have a car here. And we can’t afford to live where the mass transit runs steadily. What kind of a city is this? Where the lot rent in a trailer park is more than a house can be rented for in Asheville? How can this be worth it?